With or Without Him

Tyler is a college music student who has a dark past and an even darker present. He spends his Saturday nights letting himself be used at sex parties for money. While conflicted about what he does there is a part of Tyler that enjoys the parties and an even bigger part that doesn't care what happens as long as he gets paid. His fear of debt is far worse than his sense of self preservation. This lack of self preservation gets Tyler in to a really bad situation one night and he is saved by Haris, a rich & mysterious stranger. Haris ends ups making Tyler a proposition. He will pay Tyler to move in with him and to be his personal rent boy for the next four months. Tyler jumps at the chance to get out of the dangerous party scene. The two men quickly realize that they have genuine feelings for each other and neither knows what to do about it.

This book started out really strong for me. The first 20% where we seeTyler in his world and in the party scenes are dark and gritty and I couldn't put it down. After Tyler and Haris meet the book started to go down hill me for me. Tyler had been this cynical and jaded character and now he is happy & silly and care free. He's gone from being assaulted by john's to tickleing and ice skating while wearing silly hats. This was all in the matter of a chapter or two and we didn't see any development of how he got from one point to the other. I felt like Tyler was a completely different character once he met Haris from the one we saw in the begining of the book. Haris' character was pretty consistent in the book and he had a live in servant who was pretty entertaining.

While I was questioning the rapid personality change of Tyler's, I could have worked with it if the book would have focused on his and Haris' growing relationship and the struggles they were going through learning to trust each other. Instead it was a lot of sex scenes, most of which were done pretty well, and numerous other side plots. The author threw a bunch of side characters in and in addtion to the shear volume of them they all came with some kind of drama (or two or three kinds). All of a sudden our main characters are off on all these mad capped adventures and I had no idea what was going on. Ok, I knew what was going on but not why. Why were all these people there? What was the point? Why so many subplots? It was as if once the author started throwing things are our main character's she couldn't stop. It was just one drama after the other.

Unfortunately in all the side plots we only see bits and pieces of Tyler and Haris' relationship. Those moments were not bad but they were too insignificant especially in light of the dark secrets and emotional issues they are both supposed to be carrying. They had the worst communication and seemed to be making the same mistakes over and over again. For me the story went on way to long and I was making that "wrap it up sign" inside my head by the time we finally got to what was supposed to be the big ending. I have to say that I was really disappointed with this book. I did finish it but I would not give it a high rating. I liked the original plot idea of the story and if it had just focused on these two guys trying to work through their issues and fall in love I think it would have been a much better book. There was just too much going on.

Book Blurb for With or Without Him

The most dangerous refuge could be his lover’s arms.

Everyone has at least one deep-seated fear. For Tyler, it’s being in debt. He’s so desperate to get out and stay out of it, he’ll do almost anything—including selling his body at Saturday night sex parties.

But he refuses to open his mind to anyone, especially the men paying to use him however they want. The only time he’s truly happy is during the week at college, when he can escape into his music.

The moment Haris sees Tyler playing piano at a concert, he falls hard, and he’s willing to do whatever it takes to make the guy his. Even if it means—for the first time in his life—opening his wallet as wide and desperate as his heart.

£20,000 to live with a good-looking guy for four months? How can Tyler resist the chance to ditch the sex party scene for good? But neither man realizes how much they’re risking. And when outside forces close in, ready to destroy them, the trickiest part about the next four months could be just surviving.

Warning: Contains a “for hire” bad boy with a filthy mouth, an awkward guy with a penchant for BDSM, a hypochondriac butler who won’t shut up, a dog called Alcide, and a lot of hot and dirty M/M sex.

Night Owl Reviews Jan, 2014 2.50